Still out here in the wilderness....

Is this the new normal? I hope not. This is ... well... not "exhausting" exactly, but tedious, I guess.

Here it is, Summer.

Not sure where to go with the Summer.

I have a vast list of goals and I am making progress on a lot of little things, such as slowly clearing out the cellar.

But Summer is a time of shifting sands. It's not like winter where the occasional snow storm disrupts everything, but otherwise you just kind of keep your head down and chug along.

In Summer, people are in motion. Things happen. So dedicating yourself to a regimen of small tasks and crossing items off your to-do list can be surprisingly difficult because it's all happening within a wider context of everyone else's active Summer lives impacting you.

And in the middle of all of that I am trying to come to grips with this new brain I have, the one with the right side that keeps telling me that things HAVE to change, and in a big way, even as the left side constantly weighs odds and analyzes circumstances and occasionally looks around and sees just how crazy all of this is. It's stunningly crazy.

In the middle of all of this, normally I'd call in a rescue to Tom and we'd hit the road and talk for a few hours, but something weird is up with Tom and he's gone completely off the radar, despite my repeated attempts to get hold of him.

So once again, I am in a bit of a holding pattern. Nothing is changing and everything continues to constantly ruminate in my head.

Of course, this is all centered around one concrete objective - the road race.

So I guess I need to focus extra tightly on that for the next 7 weeks.